Close, but no speed dating.

Tonight I went to a fundraiser sponsored by the Hellraisers. They had a speed dating event that raised money for Valley 1 in 10. I was excited to do speed dating, but as it approached, I lost my interest and become more concerned that people wouldn't be intersted in me. I got there and they told me that the event was already taking place (I didn't even think they were going to have me pay for participation, but I still did, it was a fundraiser). Anyway, as I was standing there having my drink (after being sent to the "VIP Area"), I felt comfortable standing behind the border set up to differentiate the two areas. I then realized that people were walking around with sheets of paper that indicated everyone's names of those with whom they'd had a mini-date. At this point, I was glad I got there too late to participate because I figured I would hate to be in a position where nobody indicated any interest in me. I hung out and had a couple of drinks (thank you Mike at BS West) and then talked to a few people and left with Cade, Joe and couple of other guys from my fraternity.
What is with me? I know I hide behind my financial state. Maybe I'm not hiding. Maybe I'm doing them a favor.

Either way, I'm disappointed in myself right about now.

Francois Sagat and Sophia Lamar

It may seem as though these two have nothing to do with each other, but they are actually very closely related and their connection isn't sexuality. They are very different, but have a lot in common.
We'll start with modeling. They are both models (yes, as in fashion) and do some wonderful things in front of the camera. Every so often I have to feed my fascination with their photoshoots. Sophia may sometimes sound like she's spewing vile hatefulness, but she's really making about point about people in society. I think her point is that people do dumb things because there are things about themselves that need work. Rather than work on those things, they choose to keep doing those dumb things. She is very entertaining to listen to and just a little bit scary. But I'd be very intrigued to hear what she has to say about whatever she wants to talk about.
Francois, I don't know much about. I don't watch porn or follow it, so my fascination isn't based in that. There's some fascination in the face that he has a tattoo of a the crescent and the star. I don't know if this is a reference to his faith, his beginnings or both. I'm not really into tattoos, but the face that he chose this as his tattoo. There is also something you can see in his eyes. Something that pulls you right in and makes you wonder what's going on behind them. I'm curious to know how he sees the world.
The main thing I think that really connects the two is art. They are two walking, breathing, living works of arts. I'm not talking about their bodies, or what they've done, but they themselves. Their person. I would love to have a conversation with either of them (actually, I've just decided it's one of the things I'd like to do in my life). There is something very graceful and stately about Francois, but there is also something about him that is very familiar. Sophia has this power about her that makes you want to get close, even though she may tear you limb from limb if you make the wrong move.
I love looking at the art they've been a part of and have tried to figure out what about it draws my eyes. It puts my mind into a different state, possibly even that of adoration.

Blogger's Note: After having read this, I noticed I'd entered "face" when I meant "fact." Freudian slip, perhaps?

The DRAMAAAA!!---Spoiler Alert!

Well, an other episode of Rupaul's Drag Race.

WOW! Shannel really threw down the damn gauntlet in the lip synch for your life portion. I guess you just have to say fate took over, because had that headdress not fallen off she may not have stolen the judges attention from Akashia. The judges just got so used to seeing her in the bottom three that their eyes automatically went to her in the Lipsynch for Your Life portion of the show. I have to hand it to Shannel, though. She proved that she is the epitome of Vegas performers. Something goes wrong, use it to your advantage. She damn well did that. Congratulations on earning at least an other week, you deserve it. It was just so perfect that she had the opportunity to do exactly what the judges said was wrong about her. The only downside is that she'll be the bitch now that Akashia is gone.
Rebecca also gave us a good showing, as did the extravagant Nina Flowers and Ongina.
I'm so proud of my Nina Flowers, she had a lot going against, but she did her best and impressed the judges. Work it NINA
The winner of this week's challenge was Bebe Zahara Benet. I have to agree with the judges she did an amazing job, but (and this is my opinion only) I don't know that I can say is a standout to me. Maybe there's just too much going on with this show.

PS-What you got in there Miss Jade?

I'm so impressed with Beth & Bill

Beth and Bill are local morning radio hosts on 99.9 KEZ (www.kez999.com). Earlier this week when they were talking about things to do, Vinny (I think that's his name) jokingly referenced BS West (a Scottsdale's oldest gay bar), TWICE!
Today, they did "The Mating Game" with three couples, one of which was gay.
I've always noticed they've been very open-minded and have a "live and let live" attitude, but having a gay couple on one of their contests is very impressive, especially when you consider they're a mainstream radio station.

KUDOS to KEZ and Beth and Bill.

Maybe they've have Alfonzo and Buddy from Compete, The Gay Sports Magazine on their show, sometime.

I'm holding my breath.

My Dating Profile

I came across this on guys profile on realjock.com.

I thought it might be interesting to do my own.

Your dating personality profile: Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile: Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. Stylish - You cannot put up with someone who is lacking in style. You want an original, someone with flare, someone with good taste.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Athletic 2. Stylish 3. Liberal 4. Adventurous 5. Intellectual 6. Religious 7. Wealthy/Ambitious 8. Shy 9. Traditional 10. Sensual

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Athletic 2. Adventurous 3. Stylish 4. Wealthy/Ambitious 5. Religious 6. Intellectual 7. Traditional 8. Practical 9. Conservative 10. Shy

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions

I'm Sad for Tammie Brown

I watched the second episode of RuPaul's drag race last night and am very sad that Tammie Brown was eliminated.

I think she really stood out among the other contestants (well, except for Nina Flowers). She really does something specific and I guess it just wasn't cut out for this show. Forturnately, she realized this when she was working with Akashia and decided she would get through this challenge and move on.

I am a little sad though. I thought it was really cool to see someone from the new generation of drag performers take on the old Hollywood glamour. Yeah, she was a bit scary looking, but have you seen Bette Davis in some of her movies? I really think she was spot-on with her execution of what she's doing right down to the hairline.

Hopefully Tammie can fill rolls as a child of Lipsinka or something. Either way, I'm glad I had the chance to see her. She did have something the other drag queens didn't. She saw the humor in what she was doing. She was a bit quirky, but that was what was cool about her personna.

If you read this Tammie, I really hope to see more of you in the future.

Best of luck.

Back on the Wagon

Today, I made myself workout again. The antibiotics I was on should be fizzling away as we speak and the muscle soreness and joint weirdness is going away. Since I haven't had much luck getting someone to commit to working out with me (other than Christina and Cade, and I can't commit to their schedules until I have my own car, back) I decided it's up to me to make it happen. I pulled out my P90X dvds and went to work. Since my weights are at Wayne and Jenny's I decided to workout that would put the least amount of stress on my joints and my ankle. I did core synergystics. Since it was the first time in a while I was able to do real workout, I did the weight-free version.
I will admit that p90X is very difficult, but that has to do with the fact that I'm carrying a lot of weight in my mid-section. Once I get that down, it will be much easier. I also feel really good about myself since having done it. I'm feeling very happy and accomplished. I also thank Tony for letting me use his ankle brace. Hopefully, I should be working out without it by the end of the week.
I plan to get back into the workouts full steam ahead once I move back out of my parents' house.

I'll keep you posted on how that goes. If I get started on it next weekend, I 'll be done with the 90 day cycle by summertime.

Which brings me to an other topic.

I plan to move out next week. It's a little strange to consider because me and my parents have lived together since I was 23 (five and a half years in my own house). I decided it was time to become more responsible for myself and get out and be my own man. I expect to have a lot of support since Jenny and Wayne are also very focused on being in shape, so I really think it's the right move. They're also not drinking alcohol, so I'm looking forward to their encouragement in doing the same, myself.

I have to get a couple of things to get sorted out this week so that move can actually take place, but I'll try to make sure those things are squared away.

Songs I Miss

This week, a few songs came into my head and I realized how much I LOVE these songs. Unfortunately, I could find Mandalay by La Flavour on itunes, but I did find There But for the Grace of God Go I by Machine. What a great freaking song. I'm going to do drag to it some day.

They just make me want to dance.





There is some serious social commentary in the second one.

Carlos and Carmen Vidal just had a child
A lovely girl with a crooked smile
Now they gotta split 'cause the Bronx ain't fit
For a kid to grow up in
Let's find a place they say, somewhere far away
With no blacks, no Jews and no gays

Chorus:
There but for the grace of God go I

Poppy and the family left the dirty streets
To find a quiet place overseas
And year after year the kid has to hear
The do's the don'ts and the dears
And when she's ten years old she digs that rock 'n' roll
But Poppy bans it from home

Chorus

Baby, she turns out to be a natural freak
Gaining weight and losing sleep.....
And when she's sweet sixteen she packs her things and leaves
With a man she met on the street
Carmen starts to bawl, bangs her head to the wall
Too much love is worse than none at all

Chorus

Isaiah 2:22

Isaiah 2:22 NLT
Don’t put your trust in mere humans.
They are as frail as breath.
What good are they?

I came across this verse last night (a second time) and didn't realize how much I was going to feel it would really sink in very shortly after. I'll explain.
Last Saturday I met someone who was hitting on me (at least what appeared to be hitting on me to myself and everyone around me, because he was pretty aggressive about it). I followed along the path of my regular neuroses and thought about what could be in the future. The part that really got me excited was when I found out we both actively practice our faith and his seemed very closely aligned with mine. I text him a couple times and last night he called and talked to me (after I'd send him a couple of text messages). After the conversation had gone along he tells me that he should let me know that he has a boyfriend. I guess the emotion that hit was very similar to what emotions you would tie to the first part of the following:


if that didn't work, click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-JjNJAkBZc

Anyway, I got over and my glorious emotional victory over it could be felt in the second part of that video. Anyway, it left me with a bad taste in my. More so because I'm guessing this happened to me as a lesson not to do this to anyone, ever again. I got it. What an asshole I must have been to anyone else when I've led someone else to believe what was not the reality. Anyway, he supposed to go to churchh with me Sunday and then for a hike. I knew there was a reason I was liking this thirties stuff. I'm finding I'm getting over things a lot quicker than I used. If I help him find a church he likes, all the better.

Other stuff, I got some very expensive antibiotics that I didn't have to pay for and I am feeling much better, but my muscles are sore (Levaquin is some powerful stuff but has some side affects). Thank you Jesus! I only have one more day on it and hopefully I'll be able to taste food again.

I'm thirty-one, now. Say Happy Birthday.

Thank you.