I should be doing this more often.

It just occurred to me, as I sat down to write this, that when I do my blog I found motivation to exercise. What do I talk about so much? Being fat and how much I'd rather be in shape. I guess sitting down to write about it makes me face it instead of just bitching about it. I have to deal with it. I have to notice what is bothering me acknowledge that it's not going to fix itself.

Enough about that.

Life is improving. Realizing that my creditors aren't as patient I would like them to be, I'm thinking bankruptcy. I really didn't want to do it because I wanted to honor my obligations, but my creditors aren't that patient. The difficult thing about that, is I have to wait until I can afford lawyer to tell my creditors I can't afford to pay them. If you know a good bankruptcy attorney who is fairly reasonable, let me know.

What else, I'm hanging out with Leslie quite a bit. I guess it just isn't coincidence that she has a friend who lives a block from where I work. I guess she's someone who is meant to be a part of my life. I stay out of trouble around her. She's awesome too. I'm very grateful to have her as friend. I can be very candid with her. I'm also glad to know her business partner, Rhonda, because she's also become a good friend. I feel like they're two guy friends I can trust with a lot stuff.

I'm very happy to be surrounded by them and have a feeling I'll be around them quite a bit, going forward.

M.I.A. on Real Time with Bill Maher

If you know me, you know that I REALLY like M.I.A. and when I found out she was going to be on Real Time with Bill Maher, I knew I'd find it somewhere on the internet. I did! It was on last night (I don't have HBO), so I had to do a search for it.

She did really well, speaking about the the minority group, the Tamil people, in Sri Lanka. She tell about her experiences attempting to leave the country and things the American pubic wouldn't hav known about otherwise. Many people think about countries like Somalia and Israel when they think about situations like this, but hopefully her appearance on the show will bring more attention to Sri Lanka. Maybe even get other countries to hold Sri Lanka responsible for its appressive treatment of the Tamil.

Things have changed

The reason you haven't heard much from me is, I have made some changes in my life that have had some major effects.

I've stopped drinking. I'm not sure how permanent it will be, but I'm only concerned with now and will count on Jesus to let me know if the time to have one ever comes. If not, that's his will and I'll do my best to stay in line with it.
I can't say that I miss, it's saved me a decent amount of money. It's also saved me a fair amount of embarrassment and I think people are taking me a little more seriously. I was a little surprised to see that not everyone was as supportive as I'd expected, but to each their own.
I've started going to church again, regularly. I've even joined the music group, which I'm really excited about. I sang for the first time with the group this last Sunday. I only had one major mistake (I sang when I wasn't supposed to and all of us are mic'd). It's been a bit of a challenge because I'm used to learning from sheet music; here, I have to learn the music by listening and figure out my own part. The other challenge is that I've never sung bass before, which I will be singing once I figure out a bass part (for now, I'm singing the melody). I've also been informed that they may break into two groups. One is going to keep doing contemporary christian music, the other will do gospel music. I will DEFINITELY be a part of the one that does gospel music. I've been listening to a lot of Mahalia Jackson for inspiration. A little bit of the Caravans, too. I think this is where God wants me and he will make me successful if go where he wants me.
Also, the drummer in the church group told me she was going to give me the number for a guy that is forming an R&B/Funk group and he needed a vocalist, so she's giving me his number. I'm really excited about that. Lately, I've been wanting to be a part of a band, funny how I ended up back in music.
I'm also becoming a little more open to the idea of dating.
The really big event that has taken place in my life is that a very good friend of mine has been very supportive of me and has been wanting to hang out a lot. It's been saving us both a lot of money because we're not really going out. I know sometimes we get on each other's nerves, but we really love each other like family.

Things are well, and can only get better every day.

It's been a while

I know I haven't blogged in a while, but I've had a lot of changes take place recently. Last week I was in jail for criminal speeding (no fun). I got through it, but there were times when I thought I was just going to lose it.

Things are changing very rapidly for me and I feel as thought the last three years have been very drastic changes at a rapid pace. I don't know how much longer these changes will continue to rain upon me, but I'm trying to just it go and know that what is happening is for the best and leaving it in God's hands.

TTYL

Lisa and Nora

I came across this when looking up stuff on Lisa Moretti (aka Tina Ferrari aka Ivory, etc). I saw this and laughed, and then I'd laugh again sporadically afterward. She really gets her point across.

http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=3186490

My Butt Smells Like Magic Mango

I have this thing about when I go to the restroom, I wipe until the paper is white (or whatever the color of the paper). About two-three years ago, Gary got me using wipes. He said it was because he was "sensitive." I noticed when I use them, I was cleaner a lot faster. I took on this use of wet wipes instead of toilet paper, with the exception of the final wipe. Anyway, I had to go the restroom while I was at work today and had run out of the stash I keep in my desk. Since Big Lots is right across the street, I figured they would have the same thing as the drugstore, but cheaper.
They did have some cheap-o brand that I was afraid would be the same as using my finger, so I decided on the Kandoos. Kandoo is a toilet-paper-like wipe made by Huggies, but I guess it's supposed to be for kids that don't wear diapers anymore or something. Anyway, while I was trying to get the damn things open (which apparently requires a trade certificate), I noticed they were scented. Pictures of melons and island-y fruit. I finally get the adhesive seal removed. "Magic Melon." My ass smells like Magic Melon. What the hell is that. What is so magical about this melon? Does is vaporize klingons? Is it magically delicious? I don't know about anyone else, but expect my.....but the only scent lower extremity (which really isn't a lower extremity if you think about it) should have is ASS SCENT.

Thank you.

What a great day!

Yesterday, I went to help Selma (an older lady with whom I work) with some stuff at her house. Since I was going to be doing some work for her, she wanted to take me to lunch at Blanco. Blanco is a Mexican restaurant at the Borgata in Scottsdale. It's a really cool place with a very relaxed ambiance. The food was really good. Serious. On top of the food being awesome I was kinda hot for our server (his name is James), he's my babydaddy. I love me a beefy man and he was that. Back to the food, we had the nachos for an appetizer and for the entree, I had the carne asada tacos and Selma had chicken enchiladas. The enchilada sauce was pretty similar to La Canasta. In other words, it was pretty damn good. The best part was the tres leches cake. It was the best tres leches I've EVER had. Dear Lord, it was good. Selma said it's best dessert she'd ever had that wasn't chocolate. James (our server) even let me try the mix the make for margaritas (which is made from fresh squeezed lime and orange...mmmmm). I'm still thinking about our server.
After I left Selma's, I met Ruben and Doug at Cherry. Ruben had been drinking and I went there to make sure he had a ride to wherever he needed to go, but someone picked him up. I hung out for a little bit and chatted with Doug. As I was leaving, two women asked me where there was a lesbian bar. I set them to Cash Inn Country. They invited me to come along and I did. There were REALLY cool and a lot of fun. One of the women was a lesbian and the other was like her niece and was straight. I country dance (somewhat effectively) and met a few new people. I ended up finding out the mother of the younger of the two women was dying from cancer and this was their night out as a way to take a break from everything. I also ran into a girl from the Hellraisers and she hung out with us as well.
Later Alma came to get me and we went to BS West. I don't remember of it.
She also made sure I didn't drive home that night, for which I am VERY grateful. I'm still thinking about James......