Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Isaiah 2:22

Isaiah 2:22 NLT
Don’t put your trust in mere humans.
They are as frail as breath.
What good are they?

I came across this verse last night (a second time) and didn't realize how much I was going to feel it would really sink in very shortly after. I'll explain.
Last Saturday I met someone who was hitting on me (at least what appeared to be hitting on me to myself and everyone around me, because he was pretty aggressive about it). I followed along the path of my regular neuroses and thought about what could be in the future. The part that really got me excited was when I found out we both actively practice our faith and his seemed very closely aligned with mine. I text him a couple times and last night he called and talked to me (after I'd send him a couple of text messages). After the conversation had gone along he tells me that he should let me know that he has a boyfriend. I guess the emotion that hit was very similar to what emotions you would tie to the first part of the following:

if that didn't work, click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-JjNJAkBZc

Anyway, I got over and my glorious emotional victory over it could be felt in the second part of that video. Anyway, it left me with a bad taste in my. More so because I'm guessing this happened to me as a lesson not to do this to anyone, ever again. I got it. What an asshole I must have been to anyone else when I've led someone else to believe what was not the reality. Anyway, he supposed to go to churchh with me Sunday and then for a hike. I knew there was a reason I was liking this thirties stuff. I'm finding I'm getting over things a lot quicker than I used. If I help him find a church he likes, all the better.

Other stuff, I got some very expensive antibiotics that I didn't have to pay for and I am feeling much better, but my muscles are sore (Levaquin is some powerful stuff but has some side affects). Thank you Jesus! I only have one more day on it and hopefully I'll be able to taste food again.

I'm thirty-one, now. Say Happy Birthday.

Thank you.


Marc said...

Happy thirty-one, Alfonso! Don't sweat the thing about the guy you met. You got excited because you thought that there was someone out there who would be a great match for you, and there is.

Greg Gillum said...

Alfonzo, you are demonstrating some serious personal growth here. It is easy to quote Isaiah 2:22 as a condemnation of other people's behavior. It takes openness and courage to look inward and apply the verse to your own (previous) behavior.
The Holy Spirit is working hard within you - which ain't easy to let happen.

Personally, I have found that meeting someone of the same or similar faith is no guarantee that they are walking the same faith journey as I am. The dating scene is still loaded with obstacles, but is periodically quite rewarding.

Still looking........ lol

Alfonzo said...

Greg, thank you for noticing that. Sometimes people read things and they into them the wrong way. Also, I've been praying for the Holy Spirit's will to be stronger than my own, not to mention my mother and other family members.

I decided it's time to start living my life as an example.


Thank you.

I completely agree. Rather than getting disappointed, I am celebrating the closeness of the match. Also, I had a serious confidence boost for about two days! How about that?
I've come to terms with the fact that there may not be someone out there for me, and I'm okay with that. Also, I am realizing there is a reason I met this person, but I know that it will be revealed to my in God's time, not mine.